What are you waiting for?

Happy fourteenth birthday, Naiyirah! ♥

I don't know what has gotten into me. I'm not being myself. I'm being someone that I don't even recognize, how can that be possible for me? I want the old cheerful and gregarious Nur Hidah binte Musli back. Yes, I know I've changed to a whole lot different person but I can't help it. When the clock is ticking, things change and no doubt, people change too. The pressure is killing me. But hey, I'm still standing strong despite the obstacles that I've been through. I don't want 2009 to be the exact same like 2010, because I believe this year is gonna be a better year for each and everyone of us. I wanna lead a miraculous life ahead, and I'm gonna make it happen in any way I can think of. Mark my words everybody. Now, I'm starting to hate school in every way. I hate my abnormal partner, I hate my seating arrangement in class but I'm trying not to hate school. I hate this week's Science Lab experiment. The seating arrangement has changed too, and how great, our arrangement have to be the same like the class seating arrangement.

And yes, I'm stuck with the same old mundane partner of mine. Such a dooms. Worst still, he didn't even bother to help me in the experiment. Oh well, he did. He set up the retort stand but it was the wrong arrangement. Like what the hell? He's depending everything on me. I'm fucking pissed, I just wish everything would turn out fine. There's gonna be a Science test tomorrow, and guess what? I've still have yet to study that very chapter that we're tested on. I'm so gonna do last minute revision in between lessons and during recess time. And yes, I've to buck up in my studies. I've been not concentrating on the subjects and topics that were thought and I wonder how am I gonna pass next week's Math test on Proportion. I'm so gonna die. Until now, I've still got no idea how to find the solutions for the questions. I need great help. -_- Oh ya, did I tell you that I'm not chosen for Math ACT, oh yeah! I'm super elated. I'm heading to bed now. Sweet dreams.